Solid truth right up there. Oh where to begin. Last week was extremely trying, thus the blogging absence. I apologize for being MIA, but I was dealing with an extremely stressful situation most of the week and blogging therefore took a back seat. By the grace of God/the Universe/every guardian angel in the cosmos and me fighting a seemingly endless battle on my own, I came out on the other side. In the words of Bob Marley, "You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice".
So many thoughts were going through my head as I struggled last week, some of them productive, many of them not:
1. My first thought was, 'Why me?'. Why was this happening to me? I know we all probably ask ourselves this when bad things happen to us, but you know what, 'why not me'? Unfortunate events can happen to anyone. [I tend to forget at times like these, that I am also the benefactor of many really good things too. It's all about balance.]
2. I often then jump to, 'What did I do to deserve this'. Also not helpful, and pretty self destructive. I tend to think that I must've done something wrong to deserve whatever unfortunate event I am now in the midst of. A wise person from my past once told me this is complete baloney. I need to keep this in mind more often. Sometimes there is no rhyme or reason. Accidents just happen. Hence, the meaning of the word 'accident'.
3. I also spent my week dealing with a few people who were incredibly rude, dismissive and extremely unhelpful to me throughout the entire ordeal. I so often try to understand what other people are thinking or try to understand how humans can disrespect each other so much, but these thoughts are again futile. I was talking to my dad on Friday night relaying some of the conversations I had over the week and he shared with me another great truth - some people simply will not care about you. It's a big wide world full of millions of people and I know this to be true, but it's completely against my nature to believe this. I mean, my life's work is built upon caring for people to whom I have no relation, and yet I do, honestly, earnestly and whole heartedly care about them, and generally try to treat every person I interact with with respect.
I really think humanity needs to wake up and realize that we are ALL connected. We are all one giant family, and getting ahead by putting someone else down, is really just moving the whole of humanity back one giant step. Our collective consciousness suffers every time we do harm to another member of the human race.
By the end of the week I was pretty much emotionally drained. I consider myself to be a strong, independent person, but every once in awhile, in situations like these, I wish I had someone else along side me, not to fight my battles for me, but just for emotional support. Life can be really really hard going it alone every single day, and although I've proven over the years I can pretty much do anything alone, sometimes I just don't want to. Sometimes, I just wish I had someone to lean on...
Annnnnnnd, sorry for the pretty depressing post today, but that was my week and I gotta keep it real on here. Standard Jill shenanigans to ensue later this week.
What do you do when life hands you lemons?
I always say this when things are really rough, "and this too shall pass", and it does! As far as other's being rude and uncaring, yes your dad is right on. My hubby has always said to me when I ask him why people do the things they do, and I follow that up with, "but I would never do that to them", he always says, yes but everyone is not like you. And they are not. Life is a ying/yang and it's that balance that makes us the people we are. This is how we gain our strength in times of need. I will send positive vibes your way Stay strong sista!
ReplyDeleteThanks Carolann. I had the exact same conversation as well! I always think people should/do act as I do and that's just not a realistic expectation. I made it through and feeling a lot better about things this week.
DeleteI usually just try to let it all out and I feel much better. I talk to my husband or my mom or a friend. Sometimes I just go and work out or cook or do something that makes me feel good about myself. Usually my stress goes away after that.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the good advice Tricia! I was a ball of nervous energy last week. I did talk it out with people and exercise, but finally resolving the issue and venting on here helped too!
DeleteHugs to you! Continue to be the better person. Take solace in that.
ReplyDeleteThank you! I try to believe by doing the right thing things will always work out, but sometimes when you're in the middle of it, it doesn't seem that way. Glad to be through that week and moving on!
DeleteI'm sorry that you were dealing with the pits, rather than the arms, as it were. ;)
ReplyDeleteI think that we all know the power that having good friends can have in lifting you out of the dark places, but you also need to treat yourself like that--have an honest conversation with yourself. Is this because of something that you did? If it is, can you fix it/what needs to be done? If it truly isn't, well, that is the sh*t, but bad sh*t has to happen to someone. You can't always have power over what comes your way, but you can control your reaction to it. How can you turn this to your favor? It isn't that I'm an eternal optimist (far from it, as you well know), but I have learned the uncompromising value of perspective.
So when life hands me lemons, I choose to see if there is a glass of water that I can squeeze them into. Mmmmm Refreshing.
Good luck, dear.
Such a way with words you have Susie my dear. I definitely had to do everything in my power to turn this situation around. Sometimes no one is looking out for you, but you and that is the cold hard truth! In the past, I used to feel bad standing up for myself, but I've tried really hard to move past that. I've learned you've got to take care of yourself before you can take care of anything else.
DeleteSorry again you had such a difficult week, hope it's behind you now!
ReplyDeleteThanks Lee! I know you're going through a rough time too. Hoping you start to feel better soon.
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