Oh heyyyyyyyyy. I wonder if you're sick of me talking about California? I realize I did 5 posts about my trip. I guess I couldn't help myself. There was so much to share with you and I wanted to keep re-living each part. I hope I didn't bore you.
It was hard to get back to reality for a couple weeks after I returned. And I think it was a bit more than 'post-vacation blues'. I really missed California. I missed everything I saw and how I felt out there. I came back and the seasons had started to change here and it made me sad. I'm sad to see the summer and sunshine go. I am a fair-weather gal for sure and unlike a bear, I do not appreciate being forced into hibernation for months on end every year.
Despite all of that, I am trying to readjust back to my normal life, while still keeping that sunny flame alive. So since I've talked about CA ad nauseam perhaps you've been wondering what I've been up to lately? Or maybe not. My normal life is not nearly as exciting as my road trip life! Oh well, this is what I've been doing anyway....
1. I have a new baby at work. Did I mention that before I left? I don't think so. She was born just before I left so she is a WEE little thing! Brand new to the world. I love newborns. They are probably my favorite population to work with. So, now I have two under 2! All the mommas out there know how crazy THAT can be! So I've been working a lot and don't have any down time during the day anymore so it's been hard to keep up with blogging. It still kind of amazes me that I get to work with brand new humans. I love being there as they see the world for the first time. It's kind of magical.
2. Running is still mostly a no-go. My leg/back of knee didn't bother me AT ALL while I was out in California, and I walked a lot. Miles upon miles every day, in flip flops no less! But when I got back home and started working out again it started to bother me! So I don't know if it's the stress of my day to day life, or some particular workout that aggravated it. It's quite frustrating since Fall is actually the most ideal running weather. I've done a couple long walks where I've alternated run/walk mile by mile and it was borderline ok but over the past couple of weeks it has become increasingly irritated :( So that's where I am with that. Perhaps one day I'll have a job with health insurance again and I can get to the bottom of it!
3. As much as I complain about the Fall weather, it is also pretty ideal not only for running, but for hiking. The leaves have just begun to change here in MD and the woods become so inviting with their new colors. I went to one of my favorite spots over the weekend (Gunpowder Falls State Park) and felt 'ok' for the first time since I've been back. There's just something about the outdoors that speaks to the soul, isn't there? If I could be outdoors 24/7 (in a WARM climate!) I would. Perhaps I should look into a career as a forest ranger?!
Behind the beauty of those changing trees lies a hidden warning though. Winter is coming. I can't even think about it. Months of snow and ice sound about appealing as a death sentence right now.
4. I went to the library last week. I figured losing myself in alternate realities might help! Currently reading this book:
It's about showing our true selves to the world, something most of us don't do for myriad reasons. But the author contends the only way to reach true, deep, meaningful and intimate relationships with each other is to let everyone see exactly who we are. Not who we want to be, or pretend to be, or who we think we should be. It's hard to do and I don't think we realize how often we try to cover up parts of ourselves. It's a good read so far.
Andddddddd that's my life back in Baltimore! There are still a lot of things going through my mind, spurred by my trip, that I hope to put into action. I just hope winter does not suck all of the motivation out of me. It has a way of doing that.
I'm just going to keep reminding myself of this:
"In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer." ~ Albert Camus
Oh God, I hope so.
I hope you've all been well :)
How do you feel about Fall? Can you enjoy it for its own beauty or do you fear what is coming behind it as I do?!
Parents out there: Any experience with two kids under 2?!
What are you currently reading?
I am enjoying this fall. My favorite season is spring, but this fall has been so beautiful. I just finished The Girl on the Train. It wasn't as good as I heard, but still kept me reading.
ReplyDeleteAww spring is a great season - so filled with hope and promise!
DeleteI'm sorry that your leg is still bothering you. That really, really sucks. But at least you can still explore! I'm trying to focus on the good of fall. But I'm desperately hoping that I will get to enjoy more of it than less...
ReplyDeleteThis leg this is really freaking annoying at this point! I'm keeping busy with other workouts and doing some really short runs here & there but I really just want to RUN like the wind!
DeleteI totally get where you're coming from with this post. It's exactly how I feel every time I come back from Rhode Island/New England. At least fall is a gorgeous season so you can explore a bit even if you're not running. I'm already ready for winter to be over and it hasn't even come yet...
ReplyDeleteHA! Yes me too. Just thinking about winter is totally getting me down. I just hate the feeling of being cold and trapped indoors for months :(.
DeleteHow frustrating! I am so sorry your knee is bugging you ...and so jealous you get to hang with a newborn! Enjoy those baby snuggles!
ReplyDeleteNewborns are so sweet! I feel pretty lucky that I get to be a part of their lives. Nannying may not be a forever thing for me but I'm enjoying every minute right now.
DeleteI loved reading your posts about California because I haven't been able to go home in over a year, and I super miss it + my family! It was nice getting to live vicariously through you! :D! Thanks for sharing all those pretty pictures! :]
ReplyDeleteI like fall a lot because of how pretty it is, but definitely not looking forward to the winter! (Thankfully, I'm escaping most of it by way of rotations in California! *-*)
Oh Farrah you haven't been home in over a year?! You poor thing. What area of CA are you from? And why would you ever leave?! It's all so beautiful. I hope to live there someday. Please let me know if you know anyone who needs a fantastic nanny!
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