Solid truth right up there. Oh where to begin. Last week was extremely trying, thus the blogging absence. I apologize for being MIA, but I was dealing with an extremely stressful situation most of the week and blogging therefore took a back seat. By the grace of God/the Universe/every guardian angel in the cosmos and me fighting a seemingly endless battle on my own, I came out on the other side. In the words of Bob Marley, "You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice".
So many thoughts were going through my head as I struggled last week, some of them productive, many of them not:
1. My first thought was, 'Why me?'. Why was this happening to me? I know we all probably ask ourselves this when bad things happen to us, but you know what, 'why not me'? Unfortunate events can happen to anyone. [I tend to forget at times like these, that I am also the benefactor of many really good things too. It's all about balance.]
2. I often then jump to, 'What did I do to deserve this'. Also not helpful, and pretty self destructive. I tend to think that I must've done something wrong to deserve whatever unfortunate event I am now in the midst of. A wise person from my past once told me this is complete baloney. I need to keep this in mind more often. Sometimes there is no rhyme or reason. Accidents just happen. Hence, the meaning of the word 'accident'.
3. I also spent my week dealing with a few people who were incredibly rude, dismissive and extremely unhelpful to me throughout the entire ordeal. I so often try to understand what other people are thinking or try to understand how humans can disrespect each other so much, but these thoughts are again futile. I was talking to my dad on Friday night relaying some of the conversations I had over the week and he shared with me another great truth - some people simply will not care about you. It's a big wide world full of millions of people and I know this to be true, but it's completely against my nature to believe this. I mean, my life's work is built upon caring for people to whom I have no relation, and yet I do, honestly, earnestly and whole heartedly care about them, and generally try to treat every person I interact with with respect.
I really think humanity needs to wake up and realize that we are ALL connected. We are all one giant family, and getting ahead by putting someone else down, is really just moving the whole of humanity back one giant step. Our collective consciousness suffers every time we do harm to another member of the human race.
By the end of the week I was pretty much emotionally drained. I consider myself to be a strong, independent person, but every once in awhile, in situations like these, I wish I had someone else along side me, not to fight my battles for me, but just for emotional support. Life can be really really hard going it alone every single day, and although I've proven over the years I can pretty much do anything alone, sometimes I just don't want to. Sometimes, I just wish I had someone to lean on...
Annnnnnnd, sorry for the pretty depressing post today, but that was my week and I gotta keep it real on here. Standard Jill shenanigans to ensue later this week.
What do you do when life hands you lemons?
